Jus a note to share the days that I'm freeeee!! =)
Sep
15,16,21,22,23,25,26,29
Oct
1,3,5,8,16,17,18,19,22,23,26,28
I'm going on first solo flight tonight and yes, indeed i feel very nervous about it. There is definitely the fear in me. Cos there wont be anymore buddy, mentor and trainee badge. I'm now officially on my own as an operating crew.
I called Mr B the day before and he says that my life is very messy now and perhaps I should sit down and think thru on wad I wana do about it.
I'm still pondering over the reason y he said this. Is my life reali in a mess now? =(
Anyway, I know I've put on weight AGAIN recently or rather I've seen so many old frens who have not seen me for a long time and naturally the first thing out from their mouth is
'What happen to u? U've put on weight!!'
ARGHHHH!!!
I really feel so sad tat I'm being mocked at. People around me are jus so thin. Guy friends ard me goes for skinny gals and I'm portrayed as a fatty bom bom. I realli feel so ridiculed at times. Is there anything wrong to be on the meaty side?
I've been thin in the past during my younger days and my parents find me too skinny and even gave me a nickname for that.
As I grow up especially when I started working, I start to eat more n better food. Since 2002, i've seldom eat at foodcourts. I believe i'm not alone. People around me dine out at cafes n restaurants most of the time.
Can I say that I'm more pampered now and more particular with food? With good food in front of u, how can any1 resist?
I know eating comes with exercise and I admit I onli exercise once in a blue moon.
But, I promise myself that I will start to exercise now especially when I'm outstation whereby I shall patronise the gym, swimming pool, etc at the hotel.
I dun wana be mocked at for being fat anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its reali a very terrible feeling.
sObz :'(
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